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2012-02-06T05:03:00.000-08:00

Do you know what I'm going through everyday? I'm going through hell. This is never ending, I wish these things would come to an end.
People think it's so easy. Because those are just words, why not try being me? Suffering what I suffer everyday. Trying to be happy at home so my parent's wouldn't ask so much. This isn't easy... Seriously.

My parents are being so unreasonable now, nagging over and over again about my idea of dropping DNT. Do you think its easy? My schedule is packed everyday, you don't see me go home early everyday, do you? I've got band, supplementary, etc. I DON'T HAVE TIME. I SERIOUSLY DON'T.
They think I want to drop DNT because I didn't do my work. Hello? I'm not that kind of student. I want to excel in my studies. Who don't? I don't want to embarrass you in front of all our relatives during New Year.

I'm going crazy, I get frustrated for the slightest reason. Send me to the mental hospital.
I'm so stress, sooooo stress.
*cursing with all kinds of vulgarities* sigh...

2012-02-04T19:01:00.000-08:00

2012-01-28T20:17:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BELATED CHINESE NEW.

This year is so different, partly because there a new Ollie. Also, because my grandparents are getting older and its really very troublesome for them to travel around and their memory isn't very good anymore.

I didn't collect as much as last year, anyway I still enjoyed myself playing with Ollie.

Look, all my cousins are so pretty. And me?

This few days hasn't been going my way. I don't know why. I hate people for nothing, maybe just because I'm jealous of them. Ya, I'm paranoid, I'm crazy, I'm whatever you say. I hate myself for being so unreasonable. I must start changing, so every post I said I'll be a better person. I failed.

I shouldn't think much, anyway what's mine will be mine. I must stop expecting so much, because at the end of the day, I'm the one will end up bearing up all the responsibilities. Getting scoldings, facing the same old bunch of irritating folks, etc.

I must control my temper and not get angry as and when I like, its just so lame... Sigh.

Anyway, another reunion dinner tonight. Hoping Ollie will come because he's the only one that makes me happy. I don't know... Let's see, July.

And the saddest thing is, Ollie will be leaving at the end of Feb. :( At least he's here to celebrate my birthday. My best birthday present ever. <3

Ending this post of with this cute cute cute cute cute cute cute cuter cutest cutestest picture.

Look at Ollie's fat cheeks. I want to squeeeeeeeeeze. <3<3<3

His cute and short fingers, his smooth hair, his EYEBROWS, his big eyes, his small nose.

Ahhhhhhh.

HE'S SO CUTE, I CAN MELT. OMG.

Oh he's looking at his red packets, he loves biting red packets.

2012-01-25T05:45:00.001-08:00

Because when things changes, you change and I change. I really don't want to know what the future is, I'm just so scared. I wished I could stop and rewind time, bringing me back to one of my favourite moments.

I feel so useless... all the time.
IWYUMB.

2012-01-20T17:20:00.000-08:00

Hi, so recently my brother uploaded all the pictures we took in Thailand. Since they say, 'picture speaks a thousand words', I probably don't need to say much. But it was kind of boring, elephant shows, cultural shows....

I remembered taking more pictures during the trip, I don't know where the others went to... Guess my brother deleted it away..

The 3rd week has passed. Sigh, everyday has been so packed. Supplementary then band. I've never went home early since school reopened. So finally, there isn't supplementary or band yesterday. And it was the chinese new year celebration, its kind of boring though.. After school chit-chatted with some of my bandmates. After that I went home and started on my dnt. I was thinking on how to make my definitition better, I spent almost an hour thinking and I finally came out with a draft. I did one problem situation too, I spend my whole night doing dnt. Research, research and more research.

Going out with bandies today to get my new year clothes. It've been so long since we went out together.. Huixin will be coming to my house first hehehehe!

I don't know what's wrong with me but I've became so pessimistic. Partly because I'm very very very sensitive, but I'm trying to change. It's hard because sensitivity has always been inside me. I tried being more understanding so perhaps, people around me will start liking me more, I hope? Friends matter a lot to me, they make me happy. I feel I'm happier in school than at home. Sometimes I really hate myself for being so unreasonable. I think I've got a mindset of a 12 year old... Immaturity is in me. Sigh..

THIS IS 2012 I'VE GOT TO BE A BETTER PERSON.

2012-01-18T06:10:00.001-08:00

Hello! I don't know why I'm still updating my blog when no one is reading it, never mind I blog for myself. :p
Sec 4 life is seriously stressful. This is only the third week and we can already feel the stress. Mock exam every week, I just did a mini revision on maths to refresh my memory. Haiyo... :(

Haha so I started reading books recently, this is kind of unbelievable, but I'm reading my third book for this year. My english is seriously very bad, I must work harder on my english especially when Mrs Raja is our english teacher. She's so unreasonable and paranoid. So what if she have 40 years of experience? No big deal!

And...... CHINESE NEW YEAR IS COMING! The thought of getting my red packets, oh it's DOUBLE red packets. Haha be jealous! Not only that, I don't really meet up with my relatives very often. The only time we spend together is actually Chinese New Year. And we are celebrating it with Ollie this year! So exciting, can't wait to see my cutiepie. He's so chubby and likable. <3
Haha I should seriously stop crapping. I haven't even buy my CNY clothes, omg.... I've only gotten my shoe. Going out with Cindy, Huixin and most probably, Kailin this Saturday. ^^ *reunion* :/

MATHS MOCK EXAM TOMORROW I SHOULD BE PRACTICING ON SOME QUESTIONS IN STEAD O LAYING DOWN ON MY BED TO BLOG ABOUT STUOID THINGS. Alright, thats all.
Good luck, xx.

2012-01-14T18:38:00.001-08:00

SO STRESSED UP.

I want to be smart, too.

2012-01-09T07:31:00.001-08:00

Hello. It's 11:25pm now, I'm suppose to be sleeping now but I'm still not tired. School have started, and I'm officially at sec 4. It's the second week already, yet I still don't really feel like a sec 4. However, it's only the second week but I've so many homework to do. I can already feel the stress and pressure the teachers are giving us. Staying up late almost every night to study or to complete our homework.

Went to watch the release of olevels results today, it was so scary. I really hope my face will be on the screen next year, although I think it won't happen. But still I'll try my best. :)

Oh yes, so last year I went to visit Oliver. He's my cousin's baby. He's so cute omg, and lucky. He is only 6 months old and have already taken A380. T__T rich boy. He's sooooo cute.
Can't wait to see him grow up, he's gonna be so handsome.

2011-12-30T18:12:00.000-08:00

IT'S NEW YEARS EVE!

This year went so fast, and its already 2012 tomorrow. I'll be stepping down next year, handling my post to the responsible someone. Also, I'll be taking my olevels next year.

This year hasn't been so good. I have lose so many friends but never really gain any. I tried getting together with them again but it didn't work, yes I know they have their own friends but ain't I one too? Stressing over studies because I want to do better than every year. Of course, I don't think I should say this but I've lost interest in band, I no longer feel excited going for practices, practices felt like a chore to me. Everytime they say 'no time, find time', until now I'm still thinking how I'm suppose to find time when time is really running out, so you mean we can have an extra hour everyday?

However, there are also some happy moments in 2011. Like when we achieve a gold in syf, achieving 90.8% for sec 3 brass quintet, going to Taiwan and Vietnam with my bandmates and classmates, knowing that someone you like, likes you too, etc.

This year had taught me so many things like I can't take everything too seriously, afterall, laughter is the best medicine. Learning to be more responsible when I was a sec 1 mentor, being a band major, drill instructor, student conductor for the sec 1s. I tried my best handling the sec 1s well, I was always alone, no one know how much I was going through, how much I detest some of them because they just won't listen to me whatever I do. Then I became the secretary again, this year I'm have no one else to rely on, doing all the admin stuffs, attendance all on my own. I still want to thank my team for always being next to me, helping me whenever I need help. Being the assistant section leader, I apologise if I ever flare up in front of you guys, I just don't want people to think so lowly of my section, I gave them lots of chances to play better but there wasn't even any improvement, and again people are going to say we didn't put in hardwork. I'm sick of all these crap, people don't even see what we do. Sometimes, Faisal even go down to their houses to teach them. Not hardworking enough? Then why not you come take my section.

Out of all these, I've also learnt that people won't always be next to you, sometimes you just got to be independent and do things on your own. Like what people always say 'don't know? ask!'.

I'm stepping down real soon, tell me what should I be feeling? Sad because I've been so lousy? Happy because band is out of everything? Guilty because I've made people cry? Guess its all a mixture of feelings.

I really hope I'll be a better person, I'm trying to change. Alright, I know what to do.

I really hate staying at home now, my parents have been so unreasonble these days, I mean this year. They don't know what they say can hurt me so badly. They always say they would rather buy for cat or dog than to buy for me. So does it mean that an animal mean more than your own daughter? Sometimes I wonder did the nurse brought me to the wrong family? I don't even know what does family mean now. I always feel like crying but I don't want to cry in front of them, holding back my tears, letting my heart ache. Know that feeling? It feels so horrible, having no one to talk to. No one will ever know how I feel because they have happy family. I get jealous when I see mothers joking with their daughters, laughing together. Wonder will it ever happen to me? That's the reason why I always stay up until so late, hoping that my parents are already asleep when I'm back home.

Sigh, this is life.

I should be happy today! Going to meet Ollie and going for countdown again with seniors! Kinda excited but I will be feeling so tired tomorrow again ~__~

Alright, I should go prepare now. Ciaos~

2011-12-23T06:36:00.001-08:00

Wonder if you still remember me.

2011-12-21T00:21:00.000-08:00

Can't believe you will make up excuses for yourself. That's so stupid of you.
I thought you say you don't care? Then? Don't care then still find excuses. Seriously... And the worst thing is to let other people to find out. It's so freaking obvious, you don't have to show 2 different timings or say 'her mother brought her there also'.

WHATEVER.
when there's a will, there's a way.

2011-12-14T21:15:00.000-08:00

Hiiiiiii. Been so long since I posted, not very long though.
This week has been so awesome, just that I haven't started on my work. Oh my god, holidays are ending. T__T
Anyway, I've bought my ukulele!!

My uke's so pretty!

Bought my ukulele with Zhihao and Shazlina, the shop was having a chirstmas sales that time so we bought our uke at a cheaper price. I changed my strings to aquila strings and it sounds really nice now! The first thing I reached home was to strum on my uke, at first I thought there was some problem with my uke but it was because I tuned the wrong note. :/
Zhihao wanted to buy the plastic one first but it sounded so kiddy and the colour isn't very nice, so bought some more 'mature', I guess. Haha.

So me and Zhihao went over to Shaz's house to play our ukes together!! Taught each other the songs we learn, it was soooo fun. Screaming at each other's ear. We played 'Life' together, ands Shaz helped me to curl my hair. It was so ticklish.

There's band later on at Bishan again. T__T carrying my instrument all the way to RI, I can die. :(
Band resumes tomorrow. Band bbq on Sunday! I'm so excited.
Got to start on my homework, like seriously. :( I said this in every post, yet no action is done. Procrastination is my forte.

YAMWDTATYDTR :)

2011-12-07T19:22:00.001-08:00

Can't wait for countdown with bandies again!

Hehehehe I'm being invited to play as a guest player for the Raffles Winds. So I went over to their school yesterday for combine. It feels so different, I don't know haha. It've have been so long since I played together with a big band. Can't wait for the concert day to come hehehe.

There are still so many homework not done yet. Guess I'm gonna stay at home today to complete my english and sciences, I guess. Don't know if I should go down and help the banner department as well. Never mind, shall decide again later.

I can't wait to get my ukelele, Shaz already taught me some chords and I can play I'm yours and waiting outside the line. ^^ But it's so hard to coordinate, I can't sing and play at the same time :(

Sigh :(

2011-12-02T01:20:00.001-08:00

Glad that I'm finally recovering.
So I've been rotting at home lying on my bed staring at my beautiful white ceiling. I can't go out, and it really sucks. Being locked at home like prisoner staring at the wall. I can't even play my instrument, buzzing will make my headache get worst. Pathetic.
Really need to start studying! But it's like whenever I take out my homework, my headache will come back. Shall go out to study with bandies and classmates soon.

Got to meet Izzatul soon to collect the new score for our brass quintet!! It was just suppose to be for the competition and it's like official now, we are the band's brass quintet. Heehee so cool!! Remembered how all of us hated this quintet and initially thought of quitting. How silly, just because we don't like that piece.

Can't wait for the band bbq at ecp on 12 Dec! It's like the whole band and alumni and more alumni! Heehee ^^

2011-11-28T20:16:00.001-08:00

BAND BREAK.

like finally..

2011-11-25T00:03:00.001-08:00

Love my wavy hair hehehe.

I'm sick, and there's 2 performances tomorrow. :(

2011-11-23T19:24:00.001-08:00

Assumptions.

So glad that most of the importants events like JBIC and SEC are over. Of course there are still many upcoming events. Regent brass quintet is going to perform for openhouse and hausmusik! So excited. :)
Adam Frey, my idol. ^^

This november have been so busy, practices for competition to buying sec 1 orientation stuffs to doing sec 1 orientation stuffs. Can't wait for band break, have been waking up early almost everyday to go to school. Thank god, there isn't band practice today.

Sick and tired of your nonsense, seriously. Wish you were somehow more understanding.

Note to self: Tell Mr Lim about the NIE videotaping thing.

2011-11-01T04:51:00.000-07:00

I guess I'm too used to having someone around everytime, now everything seems so different.

Wondering what you are doing right now. Sigh. :(

2011-10-27T18:59:00.000-07:00

See how time flies, yesterday was already the last day of school. Isn't it funny how I kept complaining that I wouldn't survive through this year, yeap but I miraculously did it. :)

I've learnt so much in this year, learning to be independent because not everyone will be there for you when you fall, we got to pick ourselves up. Also, knowing who my true friends are, people who understands me and be there for me. It's funny how we used to be so close and became strangers, I really don't know how and what had happen but it would be so awkward if we talked again.

Never expect to get to close to some of my classmates, never got sick of Yani; my partner for the whole year. This year went so fast, those happy and sad moments are worth remembering, because those are our shattered pieces of memories we all had together.

I will never forget how we all got so close in Vietnam, went to each other's room until midnight.

Remember that time when you both lied to make someone else jealous? Thinking back, this makes me smile. Although I admit I was really mad and angry about it that time.

In this year, I have went to places I have never been before, faked so many smiles just to not make people worry, beat some of the foreign talents in my class in studies, cried so much, lied, made new friends, lose some friends, etc.

So many things I have regretted, wishing how much I could rewind back time and change it. Sometimes I wonder how would things be if I did something different. We got to admit the fact that people do change, they can't please everyone of us. Everyone is imperfect, right? I guess god gave us people to make us and change us into a better person.

'The lesser you care, the happier you will be.'

So I found this on tumblr and somehow, I kind of agree with it. Maybe we shouldn't expect much, because things might turn out the other way round.

Some pictures I've taken with my classmates, bandmates, people from Australia, Taiwan and Vietnam and primary school mates. :)

Ah, so there's band later. Haven't had my breakfast and lunch! How am I going to survive in band! :(
Amount of practices are going to increase, however I'm not going to give up easily. Worst thing is, I still can't pitch my high high Db.
Alright, it's 10. Going to prepare soon, bye!

2011-10-25T19:13:00.000-07:00

People are people and sometimes we change our minds.

Gah suppose to go to commonwealth to practice but the studio is only available after 5. :(

19 freaking more days to our competition, ugh got the feeling that I'll pull everyone drop. Worst thing is I have so many solos, and there's so many high notes. It's like when I practice, my lips will already get tired at the 2nd page... Hais, if we really lose, it's so gonna be my fault. :(

Hope Huixin's awake, I wanna go her house to practice. Tomorrow is the last day of school. Yay? I don't know, I don't feel excited for holidays. Never felt excited before. Because my schedule will always be packed with band, band, band and more band. Keep telling myself that it's going to be worth it. Ah, but... After ensemble competition and JBIC, there'll be sec 1 orientation. T___T

Hais, so my class went to Ngee Ann yesterday. Nursing seems fun, but.. I don't know all the courses that I'm interested in, the cut-off point so low. Doubt I will get such good grades. Not gonna think about it first. Sec 4 next year, time flies. So afraid that I won't be able to make it...

SIGH :(

YRUSCMMY.

2011-10-24T04:51:00.001-07:00

Don't you think life is so unfair? Well, it has always been unfair.

Everything bad happens on me, really. Things always turn out like this. I studied so hard, yet I don't get what I want. I have high expectations of myself, when I can't achieve something, it will keep bothering me and I won't forget. Like when I couldn't get into the pure science class, when I got scolded when I practiced so hard, when I'm not the one making those mistakes yet I'm the one get the scoldings, when I couldn't get into achievers' tea AGAIN this year.
I swear I'm so freaking disappointed in myself. I swear I worked super hard for the finals. I put in all my effort, I even studied for dnt and yet the results is not I wanted.
Why must those littlest things keep bothering me, they can't seem to find a way out of my head. It's like those things are playing in a maze and can't find their way out.

I want to forget those unhappy moments and put happy moments inside my head. This is so demoralizing, this makes me feel as if studying hard is useless. Maybe I should try not studying, maybe this way I will get more As.
Sigh, yes of course I get jealous of people who get to go to achievers' tea. I know I'm crazy, but I'm a jealous person. Can you change my personality? No.

At least my playing cheered me up a little. :) Managed to play my 3 solos, so proud of myself. At least my effort paid off for this. Now what? You're mad at me? Alright then just find someone else better to talk to, okay? I'm useless.

2011-10-18T02:24:00.000-07:00

Hey!
Gonna back my results, I would say that I did fairly well this time round. Ah, but my chemistry and english. :( Super disappointing, I was expecting something more. Gonna work much much much more harder this coming holiday. Yeah, that feeling when you get your result and it's beyond your expectations, but that feeling when your friends start ignoring you because you got a better grade as compared to them. Hello? It's not as if I did it on purpose, I worked hard and my effort paid off. Do you have to get so worked up and show me this kind of stupid attitude? I'm your friend. Lame, if you don't want this to happen why not study hard. You are incharge for your own academic results, am I right?
The thought of band practices... sighhh. I really don't want to play for ensemble, it's like I've lost interest in playing my instrument. I really don't know why. :( I used to be so happy when there are practices, but not anymore..

Band tomorrow, movement 1 and 3 not done. Running notes not clear. Pitch not right. Notes not clear. I'm just not ready. ALL of us are not ready. It's less than a month before the competition, I don't feel anything at all, still feeling relax. What the hell. Ugh, I need the sense of urgency in me! Got to buck up. :( This is how it feels like to be one of the lousiest player in the band... Haha.
I'm uploading the pictures I took in USS on Sunday. It's taking a long time. Must practice my running notes after that. Played my instrument a few days back and my embrochure... Die.

I need motivation, where are you when I needed you the most? :( Feeling like a loser...
Buzzing on my mouthpiece now, I know it's lame but... do I really need to start from the basics? Sigh.

Just gonna do my best.

2011-10-13T07:38:00.000-07:00

Finally! Exams are over. Free from studying. Hehe >:)

Hmm... studied real hard this time, because its the finals. Really hoping to get good grades, but.... :( So disappointing with my maths and amaths. Ugh, the worst thing is that I've not enough time amaths.

Ah well, it's over.

Got to start practicing my instrument, I'm sooooo dead. Sometimes, I really don't feel like joining the ensemble competition. :( haiz.

Alright, my weekend is packed! Wheeee. Going to USS with Yani on sunday! Omg rollercoaster rides. Exciting hehehehehe. <3

Alright, gonna audi awhile! So long since I last used the computer. Hehehe, stalking time. :)

Okay, bye!

2011-09-25T00:58:00.000-07:00

Yes, I agree with what you said. But think back, who was the one who started all this crap? From the very start, we already told you we don't like how you treat us that way and we said you've change. And you got agitated. What the hell? Yes I know how you're feeling, but have you thought why did everyone treat you this way. Talking about position, do you think you're a good role model to all of us? No. Have you ever seen a good role model doing silly stuffs in school? Lying? Acting pathetic in front of everyone? I think you're the first.

Since you don't like people making fun of you, so YOU freaking stop making fun of people first. Reflect on what you did to them and stop complaining to your friends and blame us. Get your freaking facts right. You too, don't have to rights to talk back about us, make fun of us, and most importantly, control us.

THINK AND STOP ASSUMING.

2011-09-12T06:50:00.000-07:00

Life is so unfair.

Frankly speaking, my holiday doesn't seem like a holiday. Packed with band practices and remedial classes. No time to rest, so many homework to do, yet so little time. School starts today.

Okay I'm stuck at dnt. 2 freaking worksheets with almost the same questions. Wth? Waste my time la zzz. Aiya whatever it is, I give up la. Dnt now learning some stupid solidworks then never teach theory. How we know. Then just email us slides, can learn meh? Zzzz!

Okay, back to dnt again.

Haiz my mum is so asdfghjkl. Bloody hell.

2011-09-07T07:10:00.001-07:00

Seems like things have changed, and I became invisible to you.Sigh, there's nothing I can do. I can't rewind time nor can I make things stop changing.Wake up from your dream, siew. This is life, move on.No point holding on to something which will never come to you.

2011-09-05T07:09:00.000-07:00

Sometimes it last in love but sometimes it hurts instead.

It's already 9:57pm. Time files, time passes so quickly... I'm running out of time.

No time for my classmates, no time to have fun, no time to study... Again, every holiday doesn't seem like a holiday to me, okay, to all of us. It's not that I'm getting sick of band of whatever, it's the amount of practices and the time... Morning to evening. So tired, have to wake up early almost every single day. EVERY SINGLE DAY. Sigh, so tiring. There's still maths and dnt lesson tomorrow. Have to skip band again, my playing? Crap. Sometimes I really wish to be like Saiyuan. It's like he is so good at everything, so talented.. Me? Ha ha ha.

UGH I GET IRRITATED EASILY THESE DAYS, WHAT'S WITH ME..

It's like everything bad is happening on me. Need someone to talk to, badly..

Alright, have to sleep early. Band tomorrow and tomorrow tomorrow and tomorrow tomorrow tomorrow..

Sometimes I really regret.. But I've come all the way here. 3 years, not going to up so easily.

Lips and tongue and hand, please be good to me tomorrow.. I don't want to sabo others. Notes are so high, my lips is damn pain.. It's worth it, yeah..

Good night :/

2011-08-31T08:24:00.000-07:00

Do you remember?

Why am I waiting for something that won't happen.. Well, it's worth the wait. The process, I guess is the most important.

Tied up with school stuffs and CCA recently. Practicing for the upcoming ensemble competition. I have no confidence.. My rhythm sucks, well in short, my playing sucks. Really afraid that we won't be able to win the competition because of me. Among those in my quintet, I just feel that I'm the lousiest. Ugh.
During this long break, gonna practice. So many running notes, so many high notes. Sigh...
So sectionals on our pieces today, I'm bringing everyone down. The running notes are really killers. Especially those with high notes...
Brasses exchange on Thursday at Peirce Sec. Die. :(

Oh ya might be meeting Carmen and Waiyee tomorrow hehe! This 2 girls never fail to make me laugh, I always enjoy hanging out with them. It's like I feel less stress.

Alright, just had my dinner. It's 11:21. Still waiting for you.. I feel kind of sleepy now. Shall wait awhile more, think you'll be back by then. Hurry~
Teachers' Day tomorrow! :/

2011-08-28T22:11:00.000-07:00

I'm so bored. :(

YAY NO SCHOOL.

So last week, went to ikea with Yanting and Fatehah, and some scary incident happened. I don't even know why and how it happened. It's like so sudden. :/

AND I CHANGED MY PHONE HEEHEE.

Alright, meeting stupid gay later to study and of course, Tutti Frutti!!! :)

Alright, tumblr!

I love the quintet no. 1. :)

2011-08-24T08:18:00.001-07:00

S T R E S S

thank god there's band break.

2011-08-22T06:39:00.000-07:00

Trust?

So I've gotten back almost all of my results. Not really satisfied, especially with emaths, chemistry and ss. I studied hard. Alright, I studied last minute. But chem, ugh. Daryl and Huijuan taught me, thought that I would get better than that. I promise, I will study hard for EOY.

I'm going to chinese 'B'. :/ My future, my choice.

Since I don't really have anyone to talk to, I shall post it here. No one reads my blog anyway! Haha :)

I realised, my most trustable friends are my band friends. They are people I can share everything with. They are people who will understand me better. They are people who I feel less stress when I'm with them. They are people who will never fail to make me laugh and smile. They are people who will give me their listening ear when I have problems. Maybe it be friendship, studies or band. They are people whom I can trust.

Why am I saying this? Well, many incidents happened. The reason is probably because I always have band practices and I don't spend a lot of time with my classmates. Do you think I don't want to hang out with you guys? Do I have a choice? I'm not those kind of people who will skip CCA. Yes, common test. So? I tried my best to talk to you guys as much as I could. I even went back to school to find you guys, and you left the school without telling me? Saying that it slipped off your mind. If you really treat me as a good friend, you will never forget about me. Forget it, what has passed has passed. Move on.

So I was never wrong. Doesn't mean I'm close with my bandmates means I don't have time for you. What are you trying to say? You think I don't want to play basketball or go lunch or watch movies with you guys? Do you know how packed my schedule is? Band on every Monday, Wednesday, Friday and Saturday. Whenever I ask if you are free on Tuesday or Thursday, you'll say you want to spend time with them. What the hell? And you are blaming me?!

I'm going to try it tomorrow. Last chance.

T I R E D

I hope I'll get good grades... Hope.

2011-08-19T06:22:00.000-07:00

Do you have me make me feel like there's nothing left of me?

I apologise for not being able to update my blog regularly. I really don't have time. 24 hours isn't enough.
Common tests are finally over, finally. I really need a break, so tired. Sleeping late every night, not able to complete homework on time, failing my tests, not understanding what teachers are talking about. I need a break, from all these. Sigh, I bet my results will be disappointing. I already got back 2 paper, lowest in class for both paper. Time? Find time, no time. Tell me how to find time when there's really no time. Why not try being me?

Alright, school's fine. Just that I'm tired. Sectionals on our ensemble piece today, I swear the guys are damn funny. Band tomorrow, no.... :(

Know what? I don't wanna care anymore. I mean... well, be yourself. Yeap.
I wanna watch the 9pm show on xinmsn, bye..

Some pictures to share.
Not in order.

Hazel! :)

2011-08-03T07:31:00.000-07:00

Hello! I guess no one reads my blog haha, its okay. :)

Done with my non-parallel lines homework, I don't know how to do perpendicular lines! :( And I almost forgotten about my DNT homework, luckily Yani reminded me. :/

Well, life hasn't better been better, but its not getting worst. Still the same I guess. Performance this Sunday, so dead.. Have been sleeping very very late for the past few weeks, piles of homework waiting for me! And I don't know why, I have been thinking a lot. Thinking about the past and stuffs like that. And I realise Fatehah is the only one I can talk to, as in someone who will understand me.

There's band tomorrow... again. Monday, Wednesday, tomorrow, Friday and Saturday. Omg, the thought of this makes me feel so... It's not that I don't like band or what, it's just that the number of practices is too much. Too much that I cannot cope with my studies, I haven't even start studying for common test. I have really no time, they say 'find time', how can I find time when my schedule is packed with practices, practices and practices. Friday is suppose to be Regent's offday. The band is going over to Commonwealth for combine.. Well....... After Sunday, I'll be free. I hope...

So tired...

Alright, gonna try my perpendicular lines questions again, then DNT. It's 10:30...

Oh yes, send email first...

2011-07-27T07:32:00.000-07:00

These days have been so stressful for me. Band practices, school, friendship... Sick of handling these little little problems. I've been sleeping late for the past few days, and I got panda eyes already... :( All these little little problems form up into a big big problem, which is really annoying. Well, the mouth is yours. Say whatever you want, karma will come to you. :)

I've been sleeping late for the past few days, and I got panda eyes already... :(

Test, test, test and more test! Omg, this is killing me. So many things to remember! :( My brain has no more space... There's a solubility test tomorrow and I haven't start studying. I've just done my dnt quiz. So difficult, but I really tried my best.

I'm left with amaths and chemistry. Alright, good luck to me... I should hurry and get back to my homework.

Band tomorrow, kill me please.

2011-07-23T23:22:00.000-07:00

Hey!

I'm suppose to be doing my DNT quiz now.... Have to do it later. Tuition in the morning, it was a productive one. Managed to ask some questions I don't know how to solve, and now I think I understand. :/

Oh yes, band practice yesterday. Almost late! Luckily I manage to reach school at 7:42am. Hazel is playing for the Istana Performance! :) Then sectionals with my sec 1s, reach hard to teach them. Patience. We had to form 4 rows again, really miss those combine times, a big band! Yesterday was the last time I took warm up for my sec 1s, well I don't know.... I feel relief and sad at the same time, a mixture of feelings. I just don't know how to explain out. Okay I'm once again the secretary. :) This time, I'm alone. It's okay, I think I can handle this.

So just shut up, thats what you think, not what you see. You always compare, hello? I learn all these by myself. Without anyone's help. And thats part of the reason why I'm like that. Then how about she? You didn't even say anything. Why? Doesn't mean someone with more experience can do better, right? Ah whatever. I'm out of this anyway.

Feel like eating yogurt again omg..... The colourful cereal. :/

Maybe meeting Yanting later to do homework, hope she's free. Ugh it's monday tomorrow. :(

Okay, thats all. :)

DNT TIME NOW.

2011-07-19T05:49:00.000-07:00

You are the cause of all these problem. Haven't you had enough? You think it's funny? You think you're cool? Let me tell you, you're not. Whore. I'm not perfect, you're not perfect, no one's perfect. Why can't you be more reasonable? Why can't you think? Hello, the world doesn't only revolve around you. I had enough of you, I knew from the very start you were someone like this. Luckily we weren't even that close...

Okay so I went for lunch with Fatehah and Yanting. Realised that we had so much in common. :/ So long since we talked so much, really missed those times together. Things are getting tougher and tougher, well I must learn to get use to it.
Common test is like 3 more weeks away.. There's so much I'm not sure about, especially physics. Hope that the amount of practices will be lesser, so that I will have more time to study. Ugh.

I guess this is the end to everything. Alright.

Oh btw, I don't have to get a life, I have a life. Heehee.

THE END

2011-07-05T07:25:00.000-07:00

TOMORROW IS OUR PERFORMANCE!!

Really scared I won't be able to pitch the high notes for my solo.

This is my very first solo, I don't want to let anyone down.
I can do it right? yes

2011-07-03T02:13:00.000-07:00

Tired.

The pimple on my lip, disgusting.

2011-07-02T06:34:00.000-07:00

Hey!
Band practice was kind of fruitful and productive today. Mr Lim smiled and joked quite a lot today. And about my solo, I managed to pitch the high high C. Omg -___- it's kind of unbelievable though. Gonna keep practicing high notes until I really can. Hehe :)

Okay so after band went for lunch with bandies! <3 always enjoy spending time with them, they never fail to make me laugh so hard. Then played monopoly deal and after that we went to a field near Yewtee Point to play 'Chubby Bunny'. Though this game is really disgusting, but it's just so cute. Especially Felicia! So cute la she.

Okay then we pranked call people, a lot of them have low prepaid, if not they don't even bother picking up the phone call. :/ really funny, can't stop laughing. Haha :)

Now I really can't wait for........... it'll be official.

Daryl's phone is spammed with pictures of me and some bandies. Hehe!

Some of these pictures are very very very long time ago, when me and Nadia were still excos!

Okay, must practice and study hard. Tuition tomorrow, oh no...

My studies is deproving, really have to buck up and do better for this semester.

2011-06-30T08:12:00.000-07:00

Hey! So long since I last posted right.
Well school has reopen and I'm really busy with my school work and band stuffs. More and more homework, really afraid that I can't cope. Especially with my current post, really stressful. So many things to do, so hard to handle the sec 1s.

My June holidays doesn't seem like a holiday, my schedule has been packed with practices, practices and practices. And of course it's for our Taiwan trip and POP. I must say, these practices were paid off. There was an improvement compared to other performances. Really proud of my sec 1s and the soloist! :)
Yeap there are still a lot of practices, so many upcoming events! I'm so excited. Next week will be our ASEAN Games performance and the Australian school will be coming! So exciting, can't wait to see those handsome boys! Gonna bring my camera on that day to take picture with them! Haha :)
And of course many other events like Er Chong coming to perform with us at Yewtee CC/Point and the Istana performance!

Dinner with Huijuan, Zhihao, Nadia and Daryl at Seoul Garden. Although it's really expensive but it's really worth it. I'm still full haha. I love hanging out with them, they never fail to make me laugh. Always brighten up my day! The ones I know that I can trust. And stupid Zhihao keep saying some lame stuffs, can't stop laughing at his jokes. Haha :)

It's 11:08pm. Luckily tomorrow is late day! :/

2011-06-25T19:22:00.000-07:00

Okay hello! Gonna post some pictures hehehe. Photos are not arranged in order, but who cares! :)

BIG NOSE WHEEE!

Baby! <3

Trombone section! <3

Yesterday was POP. Although it's really tiring, running up and down to get the sec 1s, I got closer with some of them. Yes, it's a really tough job but I have to get use to it. Well, talked to my seniors and alumni about my post and... I'll think about it. At least some of them understand how I'm feeling. I thought I was the only one... And the sec 1s performance was much better as compared to the very first rehearsal, maybe they are scared. Talked to them about it and I can see them really trying. :) really makes me happy seeing them being able to play. They make me smile just like that, proud of them. :)

I've read all the letters my senior gave me. They are just so sweet! Never regretted joining band, I get to know so many good seniors and alumni. And some of my sec 1s sent me messages telling me not to worry, and they will do their best. Short messages like that make me feel that they actually care. :)

Okay I gotta start on my work now, I don't even know what homework I have. I must start on heymath now, now, now!

Okay bye!
"Prove them wrong, prove to them that you are better than..."

2011-06-17T18:06:00.000-07:00

Hey baby I'm back! :)

So I just came back yesterday. I will upload those Taiwan pictures asap. There are over 900 pictures omg. o__o

After we reached school yesterday, I went to Huixin's house to put my instrument there :/ Then went to yewtee for lunch with Huixin, Cindy Ng, Francise and Daryl. Okay they wanted to come my house at first, then suddenly one by one cannot. -__- Okay I really hate this, everytime somemore. It's like you planned that thing, and you cannot make it. Irritating.

Okay but Daryl came, and then waited for Nadia. Okay it's really fun being with them. Hehe! Then we talked a lot, took a lot of pictures, trying to scare each other and stuffs like that. They left at around 9+, and I was all alone at home.. So scary.

They are coming again tomorrow whoo! This time with Zhihao and Francise :) hehehehe.

2011-06-09T06:14:00.000-07:00

I LOVE BAND!

Something is wrong with my camera luh shit -.- when i post the pictures on fb, all so blur. Wth. That time also not like this one.

1 MORE DAY. YAY!

2011-06-08T01:29:00.000-07:00

3 more days baby!!

Okay so there'll be band tomorrow. Our very last practice before our Taiwan trip. Really how tomorrow's combine will be a good one, as in our standard will be better.

And class chalet tomorrow, I don't know if I should go or not. If I were to go, I have to bring all my towel, uniform and all to school. And it's packing day on Friday. Well, just gotta see how things go first. But I really wanna go. :/

Oh yes, before band tomorrow, I got to get my polaroid flims heehee. I wanna get cartoon one, probably hello kitty. :) Okay I'm really excited about this trip. I'm almost done packing my luggage, I hope mum's bringing me out later to get more clothes. Heehee. And there's so many things not done yet.... I haven't change money, oh no..

Things to do today:

1. Amaths exit card

2. Charge my camera, taking full band photo tomorrow!

3. Change to taiwan money $$$$

4. Get the long sleeve shirt from cotton on

5. Download some parts of playful kiss to my phone, so that I can watch in Taiwan!!

6. Download songs to phone!

Oh yes! I printed out a trombone solo score today, the song is a song for japan. Omg it's damn nice. :) I wanna try playing it heehee.

I'll whisper in your ear, "oh darling I wish you were here"

Vanilla twilight

2011-06-06T18:27:00.000-07:00

Yay 4 more days!! I really can't wait, it's really soooom exciting! Hehe.
There's band later wheeeeeee~ And friday will be our packing day. Wrapping our instruments with bubble wrap. So cooooooool! Gonna get bubble wrap with zhihao later.

Okay so went to watch Insidious with those usual people. Freaking scary, I swear. And those people sitting beside me are damn noisy. Zz. It's a nice movie, my first nc16 movie in a cinema. :) hehe. Okay I'm done.

SATURDAY, PLS FASTER COME!!!

2011-06-04T04:06:00.000-07:00

Life is so unfair. I'm sick for all these, working so hard, getting scolded.
Why am I still doing all these? What for? No one sees it, no one knows.
Whatever. -.-

Jerrick <3

Okay so after band, had lunch with Daryl and Zhihao. Then went to meet Kailin and Huixin. :) And Kailin brought Jerrick along. So long since I talked to Jerrick and all. He's still so cute. Haha.

7 more days, it's too fast. Too fast.

Excited and terrified at the same time. Wth.

2011-05-28T18:35:00.001-07:00

I CAN'T WAIT FOR THE TAIWAN TRIP WITH MY BANDMATES!

▼ ▲▼ ▲▼ ▲▼ ▲▼ ▲▼ ▲▼ ▲

2011-05-26T19:16:00.000-07:00

IT'S FREAKING PTC TODAY.

Okay I got to relax, I'm really afraid that the teachers will say something bad about me or something. But I did studied, I tried my best, I worked hard, I hand in all homework on time, I listen in class. Okay, but is they say something bad about me, I don't go for sectionals I tell you. Haha jkjk, I will never want to miss any practices. :)

But my results not good..... :( Ugh just got to accept the fact that I'm dumb luh. I deproved sia. :(

So disappointing, people who don't study get better results and level positive. Ugh! So unfair. Everytime I work hard for something, I just don't get what I want. May it be in studies or CCA. Everytime.

Shit this school -_____-

Please hope that teachers will praise me, and please don't take about band...... Pretty pretty please~

This night is sparkling, don't you let it go. I'm wonderstuck, blushing all the way home.

-Enchanted, Taylor Swift

2011-05-24T05:22:00.000-07:00

Okay so now I'm struggling with my studies, CCA and stuffs.
My results suck this time, maybe I studied the wrong or something. I don't know.

Okay stop.
19 more days to Taiwan. Feeling so excited!

2011-05-16T09:01:00.003-07:00

YOU GUYS MUST GO WATCH PLAYFUL KISS OMG. SEUNG JO IS SOOOOO SWEET <3 HA NI IS JUST SO LUCKY. :(

2011-05-14T06:29:00.000-07:00

Hey! :)
I'm gonna have a busy week ahead! Yay!
Okay gonna go out with Nadia on tuesday, no school yay! It's vesak day.

OKAY AND CULTURAL NIGNT IS ON FRIDAY. !@#$%^&*()

Okay now I really can't wait for the Taiwan trip. This time, it's for real okay! FOR REAL!
YAY NIGHT MARKET, PRACTICES, EXCHANGES, SHOPPING, SLEEPING WITH FRIENDS. OMG LA SOUND SO FUN!

Okay bye hehe!

2011-05-11T06:38:00.000-07:00

Okay I know it's boring blogging wordy posts. And okay exams are finally over! YAY.
And I'm using the computer, so gonna post some pictures today! :)

Pictures are not in order, these pictures are taken either before exams or during exam period. :)

My craziest friends <3

OKAY I'M DONE ACTUALLY.
I'M GONNA GO AUDI WITH WAIYEE NOW NOW NOW! HEHE <3
Okay byeeeeeee!

-
Okay I'm bored. There's something wrong with Waiyee's audi. :( Never mind.
Okay so... I was reading people's blog and tumblr. Like Zhihao's. Brought back so much memories, when we were at Nadia's house that day.

I ♥ MY BANDMATES.

Okay thank god things are getting back to normal again, well not exactly normal. Of course there are still some misunderstandings at times... During this exam period, I've been hanging out with my classmates most of the time. Okay, I don't know but yeah, I don't feel awkward or whatever asdfghjkl when I'm with them. There are so crazy, mad, I don't know haha.

Okay I don't wanna sleep so early tonight. I'm waiting for you, YOU!

I wanna go to Plaza Singapura real soooooon. Ugh, probably tomorrow? I don't know... Scared not enough time also, ugh I don't know la!

OKAY BAND IS GOING TO TAIWAN. YAY TAIWAN YOU KNOW. I'M GOING OMG OMG OMG. SO EXCITED. ♥

I told mum about it and they are going to Taiwan too. -_- And when I reach back Singapore, they won't be in Singapore. Which means I have to freaking so back home alone. :( Ugh and their trip is confirmed. Shit, hope there's someone house I can go after the trip. I really don't wanna go back home like this alone. And I don't wanna sleep alone at home. It's gonna be damn scary. Mum allow me to invite some friends over to stay overnight, hope my classmates can make it......

Okay gonna find something else to do, find band songs! Wheeee~

Okay bye!

2011-05-08T18:57:00.001-07:00

3 MORE PAPERS GO SIEW GO! :)
Wish me luck, band is starting this Wednesday yay!

2011-05-01T22:01:00.000-07:00

Owell I'm not prepared for tomorrow's amaths and SS paper. It really piss me off, I studied SS for very long already, then just because I didn't read those notes for a few days, I totally forgotten everything. Okay not really everything, but yeah this feeling.

I'm really afraid I will not do well this time, there are a lot of smart students in my class. Mostly people from China and Malaysia. I don't know, I feel that I will fail a lot of subjects this time round. I'm fine with humanities, but the others like languages and sciences. Maybe I should stop all these nonsense and concentrate on my studies. Ugh so many things in my mind. I can't seem to let go. I really regretted not working harder in my lower sec life, maybe if I worked harder, I'll be able to get in the pure science class.
Period.

Oh ya, so many things have been happening. And I really have no one to talked to, it's not that I don't trust my classmates or whatever, I think we are still not that close yet. Sometimes, I still feel uncomfortable hanging out with them. And because of exam break, me and my bandmates are drifting. Like we don't go out for lunch or dinner anymore. Well, I still meet up with Zhihao though. But without the others... feels so weird.
And sec 4s and 5s will no longer be joining us for practices, worst, I have no one to give me good advices and stuffs anymore. Yes, I know we still can contact through phone. But it feels so weird now, we hardly talk on phone nowadays. I don't wanna disturb you because you are taking your 'O's.
Another thing is people are assuming. Whatever. Doesn't mean you are close to that guy means you like that guy right? What's wrong? Then like this might as well don't mix with guys right. Please la. Then now you 'destroyed' our friendship. Are you happy?

I FEEL LIKE GIVING UP :(
sigh........

so where are you when I needed you the most? :(

2011-04-23T18:01:00.000-07:00

It've been so long since I last used the computer. Exams are round the corner! Ugh!
I'm scanning the history and SS notes now. I lost the notes, ALL the notes.

I've been going out very often, like studying with classmates and bandmates. Well, we still talk. But we still study.

Ugh I really feel like going chinese 'B'. My chinese isn't good, and my chinese teacher now is like the.. I don't even know what's she teaching. She don't textbook, then what for we buy textbook. And don't chase after students for homework. Almost my whole class haven't handed in our email writing and compo. Wth right. Where got teacher like this one? !@#$%^&*()

Okay I'm almost done scanning. Wish me luck for my exams okay! I really wanna win those people. :/
Okay bye!

BOO.

2011-04-16T07:39:00.000-07:00

It's Awards' Day yesterday. Sec 4s and 5s have stepped down. Well, of course I'll miss them.

Pictures to share. Some taken yesterday and some taken after syf.

Pang!

Gordon!

Jane!

Marsya!

Trombone section! <3

MY BESTFRIEND! !@#$%^&*()

Keech!

Shazlina!

Umi!

Sharmaine and Xiuya!

Karena!

Whoo~ it's late now. I'm really lazy to scan all my polaroids. Gonna continue tomorrow.

Heehee gonna meet pang and hao tomorrow again to do homework, we really do homework okay!

I wanna watch 'Never say never', probably after cross country. Yay!

Hmm.. being a sec 1 mentor isn't that easy afterall. But still, I'm gonna do my best!

Okay bye!

2011-04-12T06:53:00.000-07:00

Hey! Sorry for not updating this space often, I don't really have the time now.
I had to stay back for cca and dnt. So many things yet so little time...... Everything is getting tougher now. I don't understand history, nothing really nothing. And for maths, so many kinds of formula and ugh it's really tough.
I have not been sleeping early because of my homework, okay it's also partly my fault because I'm a last minute person. Well, that's me.
And I woke up at 6:45 today. And I don't have time to bathe which is like so eww.

I really regretted not sleeping early when I was still in lower sec. The amount of homework increase tremendously. Okay whatever. I owe Miss Wong a lot of email writing and compo already. Like since Feburary. But then she don't even want to chase us to pass up our work lor, almost my whole class didn't hand up also. Zzz she also don't care, I don't even know what she's talking.

Time passes really fast, it's already Tuesday. And Friday will be Awards' Day and my seniors are stepping down. Walao very sad one okay, ugh asdfghjkl! Okay whatever I don't want to care about other stuffs already, zzz I hate it la I can't get what I want. Ah like you said, its fate. Well, yeah so what can I do? Nothing. So just do my best for now and prove them wrong. HAHA.
Oh I reached home early today, so there's a lot of time for me to complete my homework and my tuition just ended and I've already finish all my homework. Including those history worksheets I owe Mr Low. Whoo~ gonna start on my compo and email writing this weekend.

Okay I'm gonna sleep early tonight! Yay tomorrow can wake up late. :)
Bye!

2011-04-08T08:12:00.000-07:00

I don't mind having practices almost everyday, I don't mind staying up late to buzz on my mouthpiece, I don't mind staying up late to read my scores, I don't mind sleeping late, I don't mind how dry my lips will be, I don't mind how much I spent on travelling to SCH on our results day.
RWS got gold!

So many practices which always very tiring, syf camp, sectionals with tutor. Memories to be kept in me forever. The hardwork and effort we put in cannot be put in words. I'm glad that we got a gold, our handwork and effort paid off.
I thought we couldn't make it, I mispitched I couldn't reach that high high Ab which is damn sad cuz I can play that note during combine. Okay at least letter E of MOF sounds decent.

I always complain when there are a lot of practices, there's no band tomorrow, it's gonna be so boring.
Sec 4s and 5s are stepping down :( sigh......

2011-04-02T18:36:00.001-07:00

Stop all this nonsense la. Stop making people hate you.
In the first place you shouldn't even say that okay, stupid. -.- And even if you wanna lie, use your brains la. You made it so obvious already, now you deny and call my family die.

Wah i love you sooooo much. <3 you're the best person i ever met. :)
Okay darling i love you, start using your brains okay! Bye muacks <3

2011-03-25T06:42:00.001-07:00

FORGIVE AND FORGET.

2011-03-23T06:36:00.001-07:00

Sorry my fault. :(
Sorry.

2011-03-22T05:41:00.000-07:00

I'M TIRED, SICK AND TIRED OF EVERYTHING.

Friendship, studies, cca whatever. Things are changing. They are no longer the same.

You know the lies you both made cause everyone one of us to suffer, we don't know if we should continue being friends with you both of what. In the first place, why do you guys have to lie? Very fun meh? Only think about yourselves. You see la, now what happen? We ALL are drifting. You know how many people you disappoint a not? Almost everyone leh. You think lie to us will help meh? If want together then just be together la. Why want make people jealous? Crazy ah. -.-

And now you both are together. And I just sent your boyfriend, okay I sent everyone the same message. Then you said don't call your boyfriend sexy babe. Fine okay lor, you win. Got boyfriend big? Crazy. You've changed you know. CHANGED A LOT. You said you won't get a boyfriend until you're big enough. You can handle everything now meh? You think 3 months get to know each other enough meh? 3 months only leh. And your boyfriend message me, you jealous, you scold me. Crazy ah, you think I want message him meh. Nothing better to do ah. Please la, since you both are together I want snatch your boyfriend away meh? Use your brain la. Together already still jealous, crazy. Walao I don't know you guys la. I wanna tell you this in your face: YOU HAVE CHANGED, TREMENDOUSLY.

And why still must drag another person into the story? People don't like then don't like la. You also say before right, love cannot force. Then why still force people. She already say how many times, she won't like him. Help help help, go help yourself before helping others la. You can do anything for your boyfriend. Your own goodfriend also never help, wah you very good lor. So 3 months friendship mean more than a 2 years friendship. Somemore force until people cry, you happy is it? See your goodfriend cry. Wah you good lor, lost a goodfriend, still feel nothing. You don't feel that you've changed meh? You never feel that more and more people like ignoring you meh? Don't you find things have changed? It's so obvious. There's a big change.

Always we ask you out cannot, but now suddenly got boyfriend can. Always we ask if can go your house, we cannot but your boyfriend can. And you say I treat you differently now. Of course la, what for treat you so well, when you don't even treat people that way.

LIES LIES LIES, BORING LA I'VE HEARD ENOUGH OF IT ALREADY.

Wah stupid, make me feel so angry now. Asshole. -.-

2011-03-20T07:50:00.000-07:00

I hate it so much when I have so many troubles yet I have no one to talked to. Even of there's someone, they won't understand. I hate when I get left out, when you guys speak in your own languages and seem to totally forget about me. I hate when I'm trying to talk and you guys make fun out of what I say. I hate it when you have friends, you just totally ignore me as if I didn't appear in your life.
I wish you guys will pay more attention to me. I mean no one likes to be left out right, everytime I want to talk you guys no one listen. When I lost something I ask for you to help me look for it, no one cares.

Okay whatever shit. I don't wanna care anymore. Just concentrate on my music and studies for now.

Whenever you say you have no friends, come and compare your fb friends with me. Or maybe rephrase you sentence? You have no true friends. You wanna know why? Cuz you want everything to go your way, excuse me, the world don't revolve just for you. You don't treasure your friends. You shout vulgarities at people for no reason. You...... are too much. I had enough of you. I agree with what they all said.
Another lesson learnt, never judge a book by it's cover.

Whatever my playing sucks. I hate this.

2011-03-19T09:13:00.000-07:00

LOL OMG SO LONG SINCE I LAST UPDATED.
Okay because I was in Vietnam and after that was band camp.

Photos are not in order. And I only posted some, the rest are all in fb. 700 over pictures o___o

At the speedboat! My favourite!

Shalini!

Feiqin!

Pho. It's pronounced as fer. o_o

This hole damn dirty k inside ew.

CALISTA!!

JANICE!!

This girl damn pretty right. :)

At monkey island.

We saw monkeys mating. Ew.

Amos!

Retarded.

THIS DAMN NICE TO EAT K!

Max!

THEY BOTH HAVE SAME NAME. SO CUTE RIGHT.

Especially the bogeh girl, I take care of her one leh. I treat her ice cream somemore.

I must say I didn't regretted going for the Vietnam trip, though its boring whenever there is lecture. Lol their traffic damn powerful sia. No traffic light one, then can anyhow one, can stop in the middle also. So messy. :/

Okay pictures speaks a thousand words right. I should write so much then.

Band camp was tiring. And my lips damn swollen. And my playing sucks.

Okay now just concentrate on St. Anthony, since I'm not playing for memories anymore... I deserve it right. Who call me scared? Scared until forget what Mr Lim say. Good lor, now whole memories no need play.

Okay, shut up enough of this.

Went to meet classmates today at yewtee then go to limbang then yewtee cc. Then after that meet Zhihao and Daryl for dinner. Okay then went to arcade to play for awhile. Really awhile~ It was fun, so long since I go to arcade.

Should I go for the Japan concert on Monday? Like nobody going ugh! And stupid Zhihao haven't reply my msg. !@#$%^&*()

I'm waiting for Keechong to send me our recording yesterday. Slow sia! IF HE DON'T SEND BY 12:30 I SLEEP ALRD AH.

Okay bye.

I wanna delete my blog.

2011-03-08T05:43:00.000-08:00

OKAY I'M GOING TO VIETNAM TOMORROW FOR OUR COHORT CAMP. OHMYGEEZ. SO EXCITED.

And you know I found the sweet I liked you know!! !@#$%^&*()

And the sweet is like can only be found in Japan, Daiso also never sell. But Colds Storage got sell!! Heehee.

I won't be tumblring and twittering for the next 5 days.

OKAY I AM GNA TO MISS NADIA :(

2011-03-01T06:17:00.000-08:00

Heehee hi!
So long since I last updated my blog. I've been busy with my studies and band stuffs. Alright, common test just ended. And I got back my results already. And I'm not at all happy with my results. I studied, okay not so hard this time round. Because I keep thinking that it's just common test, not important. I know I shouldn't have this mindset, I have to change.
I passed my amaths you know! Omg, and it was the only paper I scored the best. I thought I would fail~ Because I compared my answers with those 3-7 students and their answers are totally different from mine. o___o

Okay I'm taking a break now, actually. I'm left with english summary.

Walao I wished tomorrow didn't come. Zzz so pissed with my classmate. As if you very pro like this, tall very big meh. -.- Please la, if you wanna sabo me think of other better ways la. Huh, and I wore that clip during Simpson's birthday party okay. Weiqin was even there okay. So what do you have to say now? Kena own already ah? Good lor :)
You see, after today I learnt my lesson. Never ever judge a book by it's cover. You look like someone so motherly, so caring and kind. But after today, I really don't know la, you are not the person I thought you were. And you even talked to me soooo nicely when you want to sabo me. Lame lame lame~

Okay tomorrow's gonna be a long long day. 2.4 tomorrow, sian. I hate running sia, okay who don't. And after that we are going to have band practice and then going to SCH for our rehearsal. And it ends at like around 11:30pm.
Okay so after doing my summary I'm gonna sleep.

Should I meet Cal they all tomorrow? Hmm...

2011-02-18T05:17:00.000-08:00

All taken using Shangwei's phone.

Haha I like spamming people's phone (especially iphone) with my pictures.

Okay today is the last common test for the week.

I failed my chinese, I knew it. I hate chinese, I don't even understand ALL the passages lor. The words like so chim, never learn before one. Okay whatever. The rest of the test are okay, except emaths maybe. Not enough time to complete la zzz. The easiest was SS actually.

The funniest thing today was that Miss Wong scolded Yuansheng. Cuz we have to fill in the form for the Vietnam trip. Then Yuansheng put that he is homeless, and his handphone number is the police number. And Miss Wong called the police, and she got scolded. Wtf, she so slow la. I mean if you see a number that has 999 confirm police right! Zzz.

And it's Yuansheng birthday today... LOL.

After school, had to retake my amaths test, zzz I hate indices and surds. So complicating. What rationalisation, crap. Then when for band. It's Mr Lim's birthday too. Then combine. After that went to yewtee to meet classmates but end up going back with my bandmates. It was raining freaking heavily, and we took a taxi to yewtee. I don't know where to go today because all so weird today, don't want me to follow them one! HAHA MUST BE BECAUSE OF PRESENTS! :p

AND IT'S MY BIRTHDAY TOMORROW! :)

Will you stay up to 12 to wish me? Haha.

Okay whatever, I already received 2 presents today. One from Shuting, she's so sweet ah. She still remembers my birthday although she's not in band anymore. And she leave band because of valid reasons. The other one was from Louis, Shalini and Calista. Heehee. :)

Thanks!

Happy birthday to Anqi, Yuansheng and Mr Lim. :)

2011-02-16T06:51:00.001-08:00

So when did you become so kpo? Wanna know about my life because we don't talk now?
Lol if you wanna know don't need like that la, just follow me. Lol -.-

But I remembered you weren't like this last time... Oh so maybe you've changed when we were not so close.
And hello? My privacy k, like what your friends said. :O

You left me speechless, utterly out of words. And just warning you, you'll regret for what you've done. :)

2011-02-12T22:15:00.001-08:00

OKAY ENGLISH COMMON TEST TOMORROW.

I can't concentrate.

2011-02-07T06:10:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY WEIQIN.

School was alright today. There's not much homework today so I decided to use the computer. Yeap, history free period yeah! Played truth or dare again, that's the only game we play when we have free period. Pathetic, lack of ideas. And then Terence, Yanting and me wanted to use up the whole eraser, we wanted to collect the dust. And then we throw the dust into the mentos bottle, and I lost the bottle now. Awesome, I wasted so much energy erasing, and my thumb damn pain k. Ugh.

Band, played the Anthony song, then sectionals. Faisal damn lame, damn freaking lame. Okay at least he made my section more lively.

After everything went for dinner at yewtee with band mates.

I have so many pictures to upload, all cny those one zzzz. No time.
I've not uploaded so many pictures, since Jessica's the farewell party until now cny photos. Walao imagine la so many. T_____T

Okay 2 cny I took from my cousin's fb.

Okay whatever, my birthday is on 19 Feb. 12 more days yeah babeh!

What the hell.

2011-02-01T06:18:00.000-08:00

Okay tomorrow is gonna be so boring. Cny celebration. T____T

Oh yes, today I finally got the time to rest, I've been using the computer since I got home. Okay I did bathe first ah. I'm gonna sleep soon, meeting band mates 7:30am at Yewtee.

School, wasn't okay today. Hate today especially. 3 test you know ffff. Chem was okay, I forgotten the physical properties of chromatography. SS wasn't an open-book test, at least Mr Low gave us 5 minutes to look through our notes. And chinese was the freaking worst, I hate chinese, I don't even know what the comprehension means lor, don't know what fish head zzz.

I haven't complete my chinese compo, die. And cny coming already, I think I'm gonna do tomorrow. I'll try, try. I haven't buy my bag to put my angpao shit.

Okay so long since I last played audi. Played with Amos and Shangwei. And Shangwei gave me his account, omg he damn rich k. $___$

Haha everyone thinks I like Simpson, that yellow guy. HA-HA I DON'T OKAY.

The Vietnam trip cost around $800, after those subsidies and stuff, I think I only need to pay less than $500. And the Japan trip, which a must go confirm $1000 plus. Hais. Alamak but I really wanna go Japan, sound so cool you know.

Okay whatever, it's late already. I lazy wake up early la, tomorrow can late wake up one leh. Okay never mind, bonding right.

WEIQIN ROCK. YANTING ROCK. NADIA ROCK.

Just a dream.

2011-01-31T06:26:00.000-08:00

Hehe. I'm using the computer today because I have to look for the 'Saint Anthony Variations' recording.

I've nothing much to post, these past few days I don't like, quarrelling and those lame kiddy stuffs. Ah whatever.

I have tons of homework not yet done. Okay not really a lot actually, just chinese compo. But you know I hate chinese, I don't really feel like doing. And there's chinese, ss and chem test tomorrow. 3 tests in a day, cool or what. Never mind, at least ss is open-book test. Sian la hate tomorrow, school ending at 2:30pm somemore.

There's sectionals tomorrow whooo~ gonna practice with Huixin the first 4 notes. T______T

#februarywish PLAY WHAV, WHAV!!! Please please please.

It's 10:24pm already, I haven't even started doing my chem notes hais, maybe I should just read my notes. I'm really tired ah.

OKAY BYE. I AM GOING TO TOP THE CLASS THIS YEAR. HAHA JKJK.

confirm china people all own me :(

2011-01-28T06:07:00.001-08:00

Awesome! Exchange at yuying sec tomorrow!
AND AND WAIYEE'S BAND WILL BE THERE TOO OMG. So long never see waiyee already. :)

Rainbow.

2011-01-25T05:50:00.001-08:00

Okay I'm using my itouch to update because I really have no computer to use zzz.
Okay for the first time today, no homework. As in we don't have to pass up our homework all by tomorrow. :) Yeah awesome. And Miss Koon even extended our homework deadline.

Went to Yanting's house after school today, we were planning to do our amaths there, but instead we watch movies online instead. Watched 'Black Swan'. Awesome, but it's the ending very sad ah.

Alright I've nothing to post actually. I kept thinking about our cohort overseas camp, and the Japan trip. Hehe whoooo.

Okay some pictures I found in my itouch.

- Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

It ends tonight.

2011-01-20T04:44:00.000-08:00

School was damn fun today. Form teachers wasn't in school, had a lot of free periods. Love it. And when my class kept on laughing for the stupidest stuffs, like those truth or dare. I'm starting to get use to this class already, really fun people.

After school, went to meet Carmen. Watched 'The Ghost Must Be Crazy'. Thought it would be much more funnier than scarier. It turned out to be so freaking scary. While watching the movie I was thinking about what if I die. Like imagine you lying down in the coffin. -_-

After everything, went to Syaf's house to do homework and talk talk.

Some pictures to share, some funny ones. :) Which makes me laugh until my stomach hurts.

Nadia.

The hairstyle app. Okay I know I'm damn bad.

Guess who. Hehe.

HAHA.

I've uploaded Keekian's video on facebook. He sang song for us. :)

Okay that's all.

I kinda hate life now.

2011-01-15T05:47:00.000-08:00

Things are getting worst now, as in I have more problems. I don't even know who to trust now. Sometimes the thought of running away from home really comes to my mind, because I have no one to trust in my family. No one cares, so why should I?
Everything changed, even my family. I hate this. They don't care now, I have to wash my own clothes, iron my own clothes. I have so many things to do now, yes, I always hang out with band mates after band. The reason is because I hate home so much now. No one cares.

I envy people who tell their parents everything. I tried using teacher's way to talk to my parents nicely, instead my parents suspect me. They think I'm just acting good.
I hate home so much now, I don't even know the real meaning of home.
What's home? Tell me.

I wanna lock myself up. I don't want to see their face. I don't want to leave my room, I don't want to go for my sec 3 outing tomorrow already.

2011-01-13T06:59:00.001-08:00

I'll remember you. I still remember those little little things you did for us when we were still sec 1.

Bye jes. :'(

2011-01-12T06:35:00.000-08:00

So what now?

Band was okay today. Did gimmicks with the band in the range. After everything, went to yewtee to meet Amy and Crystal and had dinner together. Haha so fun being with them, though they are really bhb.

Okay left with ss now awesome! After this I'm gonna sleep. And after cca trial tomorrow, gonna go celebrate with band mates and of course, Jessica. :) hehex. I can't wait.

2011-01-08T21:40:00.000-08:00

UNREASONABLE AND BIAS PARENTS ZZZ.

Just because of little things, don't wash my clothes, don't cook for me. Haha okay never mind. I can wash it on my own.

I'm alone at home now, I really wanna go out. I haven't complete my homework and I'm stuck at some amath question.

*please please nadia please be free*

2011-01-08T06:27:00.001-08:00

Know what? I feel so guilty right now.
I'm sorry if I've been too complacent, I'm sorry if I've done things that make all of you unhappy. I'm sorry if I make you guys hate me. I'm sorry if I've changed. I'm sorry for me being me anymore. I'm sorry.

Things are getting worst now. Pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee let this end. My god. :(

2011-01-07T04:46:00.000-08:00

Sectionals on heart and voice today. Alamak Jane and Marsya wasn't there. After band went to dinner with Nadia, Daryl and Zhihao.

Okay I'm on phone with Nadia now. And Junhao and Adeline and me are fighting over our cca hehe. :)

WALAU PEOPLE WANT BE HAPPY ALSO CANNOT. IF YOU DON'T FREAKING WANT TO BELIEVE WHAT I SAY THEN THAT'S YOUR PROBLEM. BECAUSE I TOLD YOU ALREADY. BUT THEN YOU DON'T BELIEVE AND ASKED SOMEONE ELSE.

OKAY FINE. F U.

Like a G6.

2011-01-04T04:32:00.000-08:00

I hate school today. Everything was alright at first, until after the discipline talk. Zzz so boring, I almost fell asleep. And Yanting kept talking to me about hot guys haha. Okay, it's not that I don't like my class or whatever, it's just that... everything's so weird. Class is so boring without Goh around. We don't walk around like we used to. We don't shout across the classroom. Everything seem so wrong, so wrong. :(

After school, wanted to print score at first, then because there were too many people, and they won't need my help anyway, so I went to accompany Yanting for lunch. After lunch, went back to school again, help out the banner and pamphlet department. Then the banner tear, okay luckily Irene got those thread and needle. Went to hang the banner, then suddenly no time.

I don't know, the band on my leg...... You know how I feel when you show me your band on your leg? Huh Nadia? Haha. Okay I love Nadia. My best best best best best best companion. Always there for me. Although we do have small fights sometimes, thing eventually got better. Okay, I hope nothing will happen again. No more misunderstandings.

Yes, I know. We have to move on. We have to.

2011.

2011-01-01T03:31:00.000-08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE. HEHE. IT'S 2011!! :)

They damn bad omg.

Okay imagine Nadia's botak. Haha k funny.

Ala without Zhihao.

Played with the webcam in the hotel.

Sho ghey!!

Okay. I met Zhihao and Jionghong at 1pm yesterday. Then took 188 to vivo to go find Nadia and Daryl. The trip was really very long. Then went to find them, Saiyuan, Joanne, Huijuan and Zhengjie were there too. Then Nadia went home to change and then me, Zhengjie, Daryl, Zhihao and Jionghong walked around vivo then took a train to Plaza Sing. Waited for Izzatul there.

Then we walked to the hotel, the journey to the hotel is really very very far. Okay when we reached the hotel we took pictures blah~ The room is awesome k! Double deck somemore, it's small though. Waited for the others to come, and we went to celebrate. Then while we were like doing the tu tu train thing, I fell down. Bloody. And Nadia stepped on my hair. Lol. Then after countdown went back to hotel and when I wanted to take pictures, my camera suddenly no batt. Bloody.

Then suddenly Izzatul's father say we cannot overnight in the hotel. :( hais. Then went to Zhengjie's house. Haha k played truth or dare, poker cards, hotel626, audi. Then at around 6:30am, went down the the swimming pool there to talk, then in the end everyone fell asleep. Left there at around 7:45am then went to Lot 1 with Huixin. When I reached home, I bathe and then sleep and I woke up at around 4pm. But I'm still tired, gonna sleep earlier tonight. :)

Okay it's a new year, let's start afresh. No more misunderstandings, no more quarreling and everything will turn out better.

Ala, tomorrow got tuition :( amaths tuition. Boring :( I think.

1.1.11 I hope to get good results hehe. Really good results.

LOL!

Peace.

2010-12-30T06:24:00.000-08:00

Y ZAC AND CODY SHO HANDSOME NOW?!

Okay SYF filming is over. Okay. I just blogged bcos of the picture on top ah. So handsome. :(

I love Nadia. I love Nadia. I love Nadia. I love Nadia. I love Nadia. I love Nadia. I love Nadia. I love Nadia. I love Nadia. I love Nadia. I love Nadia. I love Nadia. I love Nadia. I love Nadia. I love Nadia. I love Nadia. I love Nadia. I love Nadia. I love Nadia. I love Nadia. I love Nadia. I love Nadia. I love Nadia. I love Nadia. I love Nadia. I love Nadia. I love Nadia. I love Nadia. I love Nadia. I love Nadia. I love Nadia.

My bestfriend, my best senior, my best companion.

2010-12-28T08:14:00.001-08:00

y my life so miserable?
no one to trust...

2010-12-27T06:33:00.000-08:00

Haha this is really what I'm thinking now. But I know I shouldn't.

Jinhui's so sweet right! And Jionghong's a crapper. LOL.

Today band. Ugh so tiring. My arm hurts a lot man. My trombone is soooo heavy. Okay, I shouldn't be complaining so much.

HAIS MOI ISH SHO SAD.

I miss Jerrick so much. I hope he won't emo when I see him again next time..

y is everyone taking me for granted why why why?! but i'm used to all this alrd. no one understands, no one even bother to understand me, no one even wants to hear for my opinions and stuffs. i'm like nothing. haha never mind, i'm used to it anyway. :)

See the kangaroo balls I'm talking about. It's hard and ex.

Scrotum is balls right?!

THIS DECEMBER IS CRAP, FREAKING CRAP. I HATE THIS DECEMBER.

Ikea.

2010-12-26T07:54:00.000-08:00

Haha yay. Went to Ikea with Yanting and Fatehah yesterday. I miss them so freaking much. So long since we met together, the 3 of us. We used to go kbox everytime. Haha.
I decided to meet them bcos I'm alone at home, and it's so scary and so boring. This was so last minute, luckily both of them are free. Thank god.
Some pictures to share. :)

Pedo. LOL.

Jealous?! Haha.

The blanket freaking cost $245 but it's damn nice to touch.

Cow skin (Yanting touched it, accidentally.)

Goat skin. (Fatehah touched it, accidentally too.)

MY BAG SO KOOL CANNOT FIND IN SG ONE. (Ok, maybe soon...)

After ikea, we went to this awesome place.

And we freaking got lost, and found this tree, and I decided to take a picture of it. And it turned out so good.

Okay, scroll down and look.

MY FIRST CHRISTMAS CARD FROM MY FRIEND, AND IT'S FROM YANTING.

So sweet right. Awww...

Okay yay, there's band tomorrow, like finally. It's 11:51pm and I'm not asleep. Okay it's still considered early, but I'm really very tired. But never mind, it's Cindy Ng's birthday tomorrow. I have to wish her. :) My funny friend. Haha.

SYF FILMING OMG. IT'S ON 30TH DEC. 3 MORE FREAKING DAYS!

RWS can do it one!

Who knows where to buy really cheap polariod and the film?! I really want a polariod very very badly. :(

Australia!

2010-12-23T06:52:00.000-08:00

As I said yesterday, I've uploaded the pictures and I'll share some of them here. :)
I didn't brought my dslr bcos it's really big and bulky. So my mum bought me a normal camera! Hehe and I bought it along.

You can see how much my brother love taking pictures.

YEAH BABE THIS IS FUN K!!

THIS IS BETTER!! 90 degree go downwards!

'Bag pack. Bag pack.'

My brother really love taking pictures.

THIS IS EVEN BETTER, UPSIDE DOWN ONE OK!

See how scared my brother is. :/

THIS IS FREAKING SCARY K! BUT I LIKE.

My favourite. :)

I didn't manage to take that one bcos no time :(

The 77th level building!!

The view from 77th floor.

Okay enough. Australia is awesome. Fullstop.

2010-12-22T06:56:00.000-08:00

Haha I'm gone and I'm back! :)

So cool right!

Australia is awesome. Especially those roller coaster rides!! Yeah babe I want to go there again. I'm gonna upload photos maybe tomorrow.

Oh yes, haha I have really great friends. I'm really happy. Haha thank you.

Dreams.

2010-12-14T18:24:00.000-08:00

Yeah babe! 1 more day.

I can't wait for the rollercoaster rides and stuffs! This is gonna be so fun yeah!
I'll be back on the 23 Dec. And yeah, after that, there's gonna be band again! :)

Played audition with Amos, Shangwei and Jionghong last night! Awesome.

Have you ever thought about how would I feel? Alright, I guess I know the reason why already. Because I'm nothing.

YEAH GONNA MEET CINDY NG AND HUIXIN FOR LUNCH YEAH BABE!! I SHOULD FORGET ALL THE SAD STUFFS AND BE HAPPY WHEN I'M WITH THEM. YAY! NOTHING CAN DESCRIBE HOW HAPPY I AM NOW. HEHE! <3 MUACKS.

11:27pm

So sweet of Nadia. Awww~ my favourite senior somemore. And she still called me just now to hear my voice for the last time before I fly haha. So sweet right! Make me wanna cry seriously.

Me: Nad, I really don't know what to buy for Keechong and Saiyuan sia.

Nadia: Just buy whom you think you should buy for. Anything that says Aussie or something, I think most will appreciate that. Siewching, don't stress because of the souvenirs - enjoy your holiday instead.

Me: Haha yeah. Saiyuan say he like fish!!!! Lol! Go there buy fish burger for him.

Nadia: Fish?!?! Lol, go catch for him.

Me: Haha he siao la. Keechong say he like basketball wth!

-Nadia called me-

Nadia: Anyw, Siewch, have a safe trip. Bon Voyage! I'll miss you a lot! I'm already missing Syaf and Marysa :'( I miss ppl whom I'm bias to.

Her last message really makes me wanna cry. My best senior ever.

Flim.

2010-12-13T05:35:00.000-08:00

We look so cute right!!

Okay I have nothing much to post about, I'm just posting to make my blog more alive.

Met Saiyuan, Shaz and her friends today. We were planning to buy school bag at first, and end up we decided to go all the way to Kallang to buy school uniform. Bloody hell, the journey was so long and we still have to walk all the way to the factory which like freaking 30 minutes long. We found the factory, but the shop isn't there. Ugh! Then we went back to Jurong Point for dinner. And Shaz's friend got caught for skating on the escalator. So suey.

Y ALL THE CONCERT/PERFORMANCE/MASTERCLASS IS WHEN I GO HOLIDAY ONE!?

1. Brasses masterclass, 17 Dec.

2. Paramore concert, 17 Dec.

3. Flute quartet performance (Shaoming, Miss Loh, Jiawei, Jasper playing somemore), 21 Dec.

Bloody hell. Ugh!

Whoo~ gonna meet Nadia tomorrow! Yee pee ya ya yee pee yee pee ya.

OH YEAH PLEASE GO JOIN ME IN AUDITION, YEAH I'M LIKE ADDICTED ALREADY. IT'S FREAKING FUN!!

3 more days babe!

And I haven't even packed my luggage.

LOL.

Band camp!

2010-12-11T20:57:00.000-08:00

Okay, this band camp was much awesome! And I love this many muchie. :)

Here are some pictures to share share.

Others are at facebook. :)

Cindy Ng and Izzatul.

Handsome boy! ♥

Jane! ♥

Keechong. See almost same height k! I growing taller. :)

Kelly.

Syafiqah, Marsya and Shazlina. ♥

Saiyuan! ♥

Sec 2s! ♥

Siangjoo and Saiyuan.

Siangyee!

Jane and Marsya ♥

MY DARLINGS! ♥♥♥

Huiyi and Huijuan ♥

Handsome and Bryan.

ALL THE PRETTY GIRLS AND HANDSOME BOYS! ♥

Haha I'm lazy to upload so many pictures here, just go to facebook to take a look okay!

Okay OPUS V was a memorable one. Haha awesome.

WHOO.

4 more days to Australia!!!

Yeah babe! I can't wait. :)

2010-12-04T08:03:00.000-08:00

I've been listening to this over and over again, his tone is awesome.

1. when people put their blames on you.
2. when people scold you for nothing.
3. when you get accused.
4. when you were just kidding and people take things so seriously.
5. when you have done your best and no one gives a damn.
6. when people say that you have done nothing.
7. when people keep pin-pointing at you.
8. when you sacrifice all your time for some things.
9. when people don't see the effort you put in.
10. when people just judge a book by its cover.
11. when you're already stressed and have to handle more stress.
12. when opus is just like less than 5 days more.
13. when people still don't care about those little little things that will help a lot in their playing.
14. when people still take things lightly.

do you care?

Fly high!

2010-12-01T17:48:00.000-08:00

KOOL OR WHUT? FLY HIGH IS AWESOME. :)

awww the trombone soli make my hair stand <3

Regent Wind Symphony proudly presents you OPUS V.
9 December, at Yong Siew Toh Conservatory Hall.
Tickets at $12.
Please please contact me if you are interested. :)

2010-11-30T05:46:00.001-08:00

do you all care?

no.

2010-11-27T05:03:00.001-08:00

"A tear is made up of 1% water and 99% feelings."

X

2010-11-25T06:42:00.000-08:00

Pretty girls and handsome boys.

Okay. Sectionals today, it was really tiring to make sure that my bell is up because my arms really hurt when I carry it for a long period of time. And we have to make sure that everyone is in tune, the balance, the sharp +2, flat -13.7. Had lunch with my band mates at BK again haha.

After band went to Izzatul's house. :) We had to walk under the rain, it was cool though. So many of us fighting over umbrellas. Then went to meet Yanting, Gohfish and Jinhui for dinner at Clementi. Haha they are like crazy people, make us laugh like nobody's business, spitting the pearl everywhere, gossiping about others. It was really fun spending time with them.

Okay band again tomorrow whoo. I hope my section remembers what Jane and Saiyuan said. Ugh.

2010-11-24T06:06:00.000-08:00

i love my mummy. i love my daddy. i love my brother. i love my por por. i love my gong gong. i love my ahma. i love my cousins. i love my aunties. i love my uncles. i love my friends.

i have to learn to treasure what i have now. i don't want to regret.

2010-11-23T07:35:00.001-08:00

WTF AM I THINKING ABOUT. SHIT.

fk. :(

X

2010-11-19T07:06:00.000-08:00

Caught Harry Potter with bandmates yesterday. It was boring and the cinema was so bloody hell cold. I keep going to the toilet, and dance there with Cindy Ng haha.

Met Cindy Ng at 10:45 for breakfast/lunch before band. Ugh she was late again, everytime late one. Which always makes me so angry. But never mind. After that head back to school for band, and I asked Faisal to go take my instrument for me..... Hehe. But in the end, never ugh.

My hair is terrible now, gonna go for a haircut one day, hate my hair. So dry. Eww.. Probably before OPUS, gonna go cut my hair with Huixin maybe.

I have to meet up with my classmates one day to collect back all my ticket money, if not they later they very fickle-minded then don't want buy anymore. Please please please buy my tickets. It's $12.

Aww Crystal did this for me so pretty right!

I have nothing to post actually, just posting for the sake of posting and my double tougueing sucks.

"Ta ka ta ka ta ka ta ka ta ka"

And I hope tomorrow will be a better day. Please.